the barkada outing

today is the scheduled barkada outing at club manila east. i didn't confirm nor declined.

i wanted to join them but i was, again, too scared to have close encounters with them. alam ko na matatanong ako about CCF stuff which i have been trying to avoid for the longest time.

aside from that, alam ko na HE told HER that i have not been joining barkada events anymore. HE told HER that when HE was asked if we still communicate or talk. we still do but not the way we used to which was everyday. HE removed me from HIS ym list because of HER and in return I removed HIM too. lately, we see each other almost every or every other week to catch up and just to HUG. isn't that weird?

going back, from the day that SHE found out about US she made it very clear to HIM that HE will NEVER EVER talk to me EVER again. and every now and then, SHE would catch HIM still communicating with me. and it has been like this for more than a year now.

and with that in mind, i NEVER joined any of the barkada gimiks anymore even if HE asked me to. besides, i felt that the invitation from HIM was half hearted which he admitted in the past.

i am marking my 6th day of NO COMMUNICATION with HIM. i was sort of expecting to hear from HIM regarding the barkada outing but i never did.

oh well, the counting goes on. i am out of here.