i can do this...

it's been almost a week now that i haven't heard from him. i just left him a reply when i last replied to his email, that was a sunday.

the barkada outing will be this saturday. i don't have any intentions naman talaga of joining. aside from the fact na evasive ako with the rest of the group, i guess ayaw ko din sumama just to avoid any conflict between him and his wife. alam naman natin na going out in with him even if kasama barkada is a big no-no. lalo na with all the pictures to prove and the fact na it feels awkward lang din siguro keeping a distance from him.

i am thinking of not initiating any means of communications with him and i don't have any intentions of replying to any of his emails or text messages. para matapos na talaga ang kwento ng buhay namin.

disclaimer, that is not what i want but i know i have to. tutal naman we don't get to talk na palagi so why even bother thinking na he still cares. he doesn't.

he chose to marry her last year. she married him despite my being around. she left. he came to me. i stayed.stayed longer. he left me. but only for a while. so we stayed.

when we hug, it's so tight that it gives you that feeling of something deeper. a hug so tight you feel it deep in your heart. and it's just isn't me.

i know i can do this. i can turn away from him. if i was a real and good friend, i will. why? because a good friend wants what's right and the best for his friend.

as for me, i will be alone and away but i can love you here in my heart.